7 nights of almost no sleep leaves one to be very ….um…should I say….not like themselves? I TRIED EVERYTHING! Finally, after having somewhat of an anxiety attack yesterday morning, I told my husband I had had it. My body was screaming for help. Today will be a day full of Xanax. Took my first one and was out like a light within 30 minutes. Slept a GOOD 4 hours. Good DEEP sleep. Got up for about 2 hours, maybe little less and took another, slept some more. Got up around supper, ate some, took another and went back to bed-I FINALLY SLEPT PRETTY WELL ALL NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope tonight will be a night of sleep-without any meds. I reckon I had to “shut my body down” with the xanax. I woke up as usual-7AM on the dot. So maybe all will return normal. I ONLY TAKE Xanax when I HAVE TO. My boys know that if I take a Xanax-they better leave Momma alone! Fortunately too, they can take care of themselves.

OK….remember yesterday I had some more great news to share? (this may get lengthy so please hang in there!)

If any of you remember, (I have a couple of new friends on here) , my Brett is somewhat of an oddity. (Trust me, I’m laughing here!! LOL) He is my 16 year old son. We have home schooled him since 1^st grade. We have tried in the past to get him in things. What I mean, is he is more on the shy side. VERY CREATIVE. VERY SMART! If we have company, family or whoever, he goes and sits in his room. He likes to be alone too much by my standards. He thinks very differently from most people too, and what I mean there is he can do a Geometry problem completely different but come up with the right answer. He is somewhat emotionally detached too. I mean he is loving and all, sometimes he wont leave me alone-but like when my dad died last year, Brett didn’t cry-he said “What for? He is in heaven, why should I cry about that?” So we have always tried to find that “something” to try to bring “him” out. He likes to piddle with many different things. Not just one thing. Jake loved Civil War. That was it. So anything Civil War-we did all we could to foster that interest. Brett likes MANY THINGS!!!!!!! And could seriously be great at anything he concentrated on. He has such a broad spectrum of likes, its hard to pinpoint. He loves opera, art history, science, math, cooking and is GREAT at helping me do things like home decorating!! Great at helping me with tables capes!! But then he enjoys hunting to wrestling, you name it. Anthing else boys like. BROAD is an understatement!!

OK-now…..back in May, we took Brett to a Rennasance Festival he wanted to go to. That same day, he had to leave to go work at Boy Scout camp. So when we left the festival, we took him to the camp. Well, we picked him up that following weekend to bring him home and when we got home, I think we saw our TRUE Brett for the first time! He sat and CRIED!!!!!! He was emotional-something he usually isn’t. He said being there at the festival and seeing other people who were like him-different-he felt not so lonely. What he meant by different was….people who like the Medieval Ages, they all dressed up, etc. Brett isn’t around ANYBODY ELSE who liked the Medieval Ages. So….he had nothing to talk about like Jake did. You can sit and talk about Civil War with ANYBODY-but not the Middle Ages!!! Thus...the reason for leaving company and retiring to his room. He said he now sees how his shyness had hindered him. I seen my son somewhat “reborn” that day. He has been different since!!

 After that took place, I scoured the internet, made calls, did everything I could to find out if there were ANY groups, clubs, meetings , ANYTHING of the Middle Ages. NOTHING! He cried that day because he knew he could never joust or dress as a Knight!!!! We were pleasantly surprised that there was a small Celtic Day we were able to take him to back in August. The World Champion of Jousting was there!!!!!!!!!! Which only ignited Brett more. But also upset him more-He could never do that. So he somewhat climbed back into his shell.

OK…….now the great news. Last week, he was chatting online with one buddy on one of his internet games. His buddy told him of a group in Chattanooga. (that’s about 40 minutes from here) I checked it out and spoke to the people. THERES A MEDIEVAL GROUP IN OUR VACINITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gals, I am crying as I type this! You have NO IDEA how this is a blessing to this family. Brett now has an outlet. I tried EVERYTHING! But God used a friend in OHIO to answer this prayer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (next time I will sit back and trust God quite a bit more!!!! and how the guy in Ohio knew-only God knows!!!)

I tried hiding it from Brett and told him we were going to Chatt., to maybe look at decorations, etc. tonight. Just out for a drive. As of yesterday-I couldn’t hold it back anymore!!!!!!!!! I told him! HE HAS BEEN ON CLOUD 9 ever since. We go tonight to our first meeting. I will try to post a link for anybody who would like to see the group. (he probably knew SOMETHNG was up, b/c I dont drice in the big town after dark!!!lol)

Ladies, I have seen many prayers answered. But many of you may also know how it is to have a prayer answered when you have prayed for a LONG TIME and you think God sometimes isn’t hearing that prayer!!!! This is one of those!

I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gotta go get ready!

Pray it turns out well!